happy birthday Maherah!
have fun babe~
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okay, im in a hurry.
i have three minutes to blog.
okay, im going out to Illuma to watch a movie with ain & lya.
& ain brother is tagging along. HUAHAUA.
sorry khalisah, couldn't meet up with you today :(
&
i will tell you more about yesterday later onwards.
it was a blaaaaaaaast & so funny.
& saturday too.

Okay, im suppose to meet ain at 12.30 at clementi & its already 12.25 & im still at my house.
Loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeees/ bye.

Hidayu ♥

Even though, i knew this day was arriving i never took it seriously for i had not let myself believe that she will be gone soon. I have thought that she will be graduating with us. We will be surviving sec 3 together through the ups and downs. Sec 4. seeing you every morning in school singing like a tweety bird. Listening to you talk about boobs became a habit. You have warned me that this day is coming, yet i never made myself believe it. Even today i could not believe it, but seeing you walk through that door was very hurting. I did not realize that i was crying until i felt my tears trickle down my cheeks. I know this is for the better, but really why, donkey?

What a Bestfriend is not,

A "friend" uses friends to accomplish a means to an end.
When you cry, a "friend" callously brushes it aside and yet expects you to sympathize when things aren't going right with them.
You call them, they won't answer, yet they expect to you to pick up the phone on the first ring. Where are they when you need help, they are doing their own thing Until its time to call you to their side.
Still, through it all you have remained their friend.
When will it end? Hands stretched out expecting, always with a friendly, cajoling smile on their face.
Yet, when you look at them, there is no trace of the deceit inside, and the uncaring attitude they hide. They swear they are your friend and somehow make you believe it.
But reality has set in.
The facade they erected, the smiling eyes, the caring words, is just a farce.
You have always been there for them, but where were they in your darkest hour.
Scarce a trace.
The little sacrifices, the words of encouragement you give, are overlooked, when its all about them.
Gifts that were given, long forgotten, like dust brushed under a rug.
Hurt and anger builds up. What else would you expect.
A change for the better, is that too much to ask.
But now you are faced with an insurmountable task of living your life with one less friend.

Today was first day of school, obviously. I thought i was late to school. Not a good start, for a day. Luckily, I was 10 minutes early and i get to see my mates again. Jump up & down. First lesson was suppose to be literature but it was taken by form teacher, talking and talking about H1N1. pfft.
Then there was a slight change of seating arrangements. Bye bye, shafina. Hello syafiqah.
The most lesson i hated today was maths. As usual, mrs Ramesh did not come and it was taken over by that engineering teacher. I simply do not understand a single word. So basically, I tuned him out and continued reading my book "fake boyfriend" i give it two thumbs up. Though, my partner Shao Quan was very irritating but its not unusual, he was just being his dumb self. English lesson was held in the AVA room, thats where all the horror started. We were to present our Singapore litter free speech & slideshows in there. I thought, it was to project our voices but Ms linda had to come and say that it will be filmed and it will be uploaded it youtube. The whole class was pathetically so shocked. and my group was second to present. After our presentation, Ms linda let us watch ourselves. & 'Well' is my favourite word. I keep repeating that word. After that literature, the butterfly story was touching but the ending kind of stupid.

After that, had to do some secatary stuff with Irdayu and then we headed to khalisah house. & a round of applause for me, i know how to go to her house, liike finally. & i pathetically called khalisah, just to ask for the name of the cappuccino drink and Took 99 back hoomeeeh
I slept a solid of two hours & i promise i will never stay awake on a school night, to finish a book. Oh & the book i was reading yesterday, the ending was so unexpected. I thought about friendship, Skali in the end the girls KISS!! sacrificed my beauty sleep for nothing. pfft.
School is a daily routine for us
In the morning, we're sure to make a fuss
Even when the sun is still not up,
Here we are, awake at 6am sharp

We feel that school is such a bore
We feel that school is such a chore
Parents say, “School’s great! Now, go!”
We say, “Well, what do you know?”

Late a minute and we have to run
Eyes half open, shoelaces undone
We reach school and we see our friends,
Immediately, the torture ends

We have a chat and go with the flow
Then the bell rings, it is time to go
We may at times find school stressful
To have some fun, we have to bend some rules

Talk back to teachers, and detention we serve
No doubt, it is sometimes what we deserve
Sometimes they are as cold as ice
And other times they're actually really nice

They teach us and give us a helping hand
They’re forever ready to listen and be a friend
They have built much confidence in us
Just not when they are being really harsh

Over the years of education,
Never have we had so much learning with action
Such as camps, experiments, concerts and activities
We’ve learnt so much and even saved the trees

A wise teacher once said aloud -
Success is failure turned inside out
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit

Some may see school as a torture chamber
Some cannot wait for the holidays in December
But it depends on how we look at school
Honestly, positively, school is cool!

MY LEG HAS CRAMPS & IT ACHES LIKE ONE OF A KIND.
&
i have survived the two days, one night NCO camp.
the camp was, fun & tiring. we learnt new drills steps.
the most part i enjoyed was, playing captain's ball.
obviously, cause i was chasing shadowing james :)
&
playing the idk what game against the alumni's.
the drills was enjoyable at times & torturing at times.
not to forget the uncountable push-ups we did.
UNISONO
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY AQILAH!
may all your wishes come true & i hope you had fun today.
you should okay :D
i love you.
& i want meet you soon man, it been so long :O

It was a perfect world.
but we broke it.

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